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-On The Mend-

by Scarlett Avenue

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Ashley Jordan
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Ashley Jordan Scarlett Avenue is full of some of the most talented and passionate people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. They and their music mean a great deal to me, and I am more than happy to support them in any and every way I can. I love you guys so much, keep up the great work. ♥ Favorite track: Weeks.
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Thomas These guys are what's right in the SD music scene. They work their asses off and put out an amazing album like this. Their lyrics are real and heartfelt while the music is unique. Not your generic everyday pop punk. Its seriously a strong contender for my favorite album this year, definitely give it a listen. Favorite track: Brighter Pt. 2.
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1.
Repetition 03:01
I've spent so many nights this month Thinking of who will remember me Telling myself, someone will think of me But i'm still convinced these are the best days of my life I've used so much time in my week Taking up drinking so heavily Bringing up old forgotten memories But somehow, I'm convinced that I don't want to die So here's round two of telling myself it will get better I can't live this way I'm just looking for something real to believe But when I'm alone there just no way for me You swear that I can never feel your pain You obsessively push to convince me That I can never feel the same But I've been there before I've gotten used to feeling tired and sore I've watched the world around me Collapse to the floor So trust me, kid I feel the same pain that you did Trust me, kid I feel your pain So I'll go on wasting my days and my nights And I'll continue doing whatever I deem is right And I'll look back on these regrets Pushing to forget All the pain that I have given Too much time to set
2.
In The Open 04:04
I haven't tried Being such a wreck I haven't left The way I felt so out in the open for everyone to see And every day this week Is like a storm that hasn't broke A sea with no ripples An artist without a brush Who tried to paint an empty canvas And all I seek is to feel the way I did three months ago Where does the comforter go for comfort? Why does my mind let itself wander so far out If there is one thing I've learned from all of this (It has to be) That my hopes can become all I have That my dreams are the only thing in this world that I still control And I'll be damned if I'll let anyone or anything Take that away from me I miss the golden days When it seemed like the palm of my hand Held everything I needed When it was me being the help Not needing it I miss the stupid days When everyone I loved Never stayed away I would see them Not only in my thoughts But in my life Making all these days A little something special
3.
Weeks 04:32
I don't battle with depression Unless you count at 2 AM I think it's fairly obvious My mindset's always different then And I have a confession About who I've become I've realized it's war that matters Not the battles that I've won Weeks pass by without a single change I've conceived the thought that things won't go my way Instead of feeling happy I came to realize My mind is stuck on the bags under my eyes It's another omission Something I keep from all my friends I feel brokenhearted All the time but I know It's just in my head Sometimes I'm too pretentious And I know that I'm alone because of it I've chosen to alienate everyone How can I expect to fix the man in the mirror If I can't even pull my chin up enough to look at myself
4.
Knots 02:54
It doesn't take much to push me downhill The thoughts are constant, the jealousy is honest and the pain is real I never have a reason to feel this way Except when I'm scared of losing you to my own flaws, I am simply afraid If I can't save me, just tell me who will I've depended on others without end Its been years since I walked on my own Stuck because good days start with my own steps I struggle to stay awake just to express every surmise It never goes how I plan with incomplete verses and lines Much like my pensive life I leave words unsaid and in my head Tying knots in my own mind, made of thoughts and never untied The way the rain falls down without a say I can't help but think about my day to day It's reflex how I sink into despair But I know that it will all clear
5.
Remedy 04:01
I'm not down for the count just yet My feet may be dragging My shoulders may be breaking I'm trying hard to forget My life is wavering My mind is aching Apologies lose touch over time I'm trying to help myself through this lie My unwary life begins to dry My exhausted mind has no light To whom do i owe the pleasure for this constant reminder of what I've done I've given away everything i thought defined me I'm sick of hurting everyone This isn't what i wanted I can't live this way I'll prove to myself that even I can change Time isn't helping in this stage I can't keep these thoughts at bay I need to find something My personal remedy Though time is overwhelming I can't give in to these lies They speak to me too clearly But they know that i despise every ill conceived notion to bring me farther down than the last time Over and over An inconsistent hope Made broken And i've been piecing it back together I now know that the pleasure is all mine But i will work for it and take the time I'll be better just you wait and see I want hope, I want you To believe in me I'm sorry I don't mean to worry I'm pushing to pick up where I left off I'm still fighting Told myself i won't give up I'll keep trying to be better than i was If it means Anything to you I'm trying
6.
Counting 02:49
I'm counting the hours on one hand since the last time you raced through my head I was fine for so long I'm drunk and alone in my backyard Staring at the moon Whispering quietly a conversation I thought we'd have sometime soon Have you ever stayed up too late and wondered whether you'll be missed I'll give you as many words as you want if you give me just one in return I don't have what you want me to give you I'm sick of being a disappointment You know you can count on It hard to think you're having such an easy time without me I'm convincing myself I'm not this pathetic Perhaps this is as good as it gets I'm catching myself Maybe I won't fall too far this time around I'm counting the days in my head now Since the last time that I thought of you I was fine for so long
7.
Closure 03:56
I've written this down A million times before I've screamed your name out In front of people who don't even know who you are I've taken advice From more minds than I'm willing to announce There's still memories of you in everywhere I've been It's taken the better part of two years To come to where I am today You think I'd be fine But damnit the pain always finds a way So I'm stuck with the same Broken record mindset A monotonous sound that Never gives me any rest And now I'm broken down There's nothing left for me to figure out And now I'm tearing down These walls I've built around myself I'm done with you
8.
I've worked too hard To give up now I don't believe What my mind tends to think about It's under control All these racing thoughts But it takes a toll All my strength seems lost Hope may seem bleak But the end looks lighter Tell myself again My days will get brighter I won't give up on myself Sometimes I wonder why I bother But I'll push myself harder than any other
9.
Settling 04:38
Sometimes I just get up slow But more often, there's nowhere to go I try my best, I swear to you I do But I'm so use to just being abused So I wait for something to change But I keep failing at everything I aim for I won't be just another disappointment I won't make my mother cry anymore I've been searching for something real to believe I'm just too afraid to start anything I've given myself So many damn excuses But I know that I was meant for more This stupid world has got me Running in circles I know I have Too much to live for I'm not waiting anymore for change No more failing I'm going to win today I'll finish for you
10.
Letters 05:05
I won't sing the same old lines about love I won't use all of your time, so just hear me out There's been a few things I've wanted to tell you Our time spent apart wasn't only hell for you Twenty years can fade away I'd still be willing to stay I've fucked before so believe me when I tell you I knew what i had when you were gone I apologize for taking so long Don't give me another excuse For the way I behave I know you've got better things to do Than sit here with me on the floors all day You've done nothing to Deserve to be with a shitty guy like me But I'll still thank you for The patience you've given me I don't have much But what I have you can call your own I know I'm just a fucking mutt You gave me something to hold onto And I won't let go
11.
I've grown sick of the long drives alone in my car And hoping the good days weren't very far away Everything I've learned in the past few years Well hopefully, it all pays off today Last time I talked to my dad he said He was so proud of me I remember feeling down until I made My mom laugh last week I know its normally my job To tell you everything's fucked up But not today, I'm feeling great Finally, I've found A silver lining in this town So I'll make the best of it I'll take what I can get I'm doing better today I stay worried all morning Until i look out And realize, I can't find a single cloud I tell myself that I am dreaming I've run out of complaints Not a single worry I keep thinking my day will turn bad and soon I will start drowning Last night I finally slept and for once I fell asleep smiling I woke up today And watched as The clouds rolled away Last night I finally slept And for once, I fell asleep smiling
12.
Through 02:04
I will become somebody I know I can believe in I can't live this way The tables could stop turning I'm not alone, I'll find a way for me And through it all, I'll keep my head held high No need for goodbye We'll raise a glass to worry I'm not alone, I'll find a way for me So we'll go on Wasting our days and our nights And we'll continue doing Whatever we deem is right And we'll wipe away the sweat Forgive because we can't forget And raise a glass to all the stupid shit We will never regret

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released July 5, 2014

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Scarlett Avenue Poway, California

Poetic pop punk from San Diego. Currently on hiatus.

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